It’s hard to think that you can ever love again when your heart has been shattered so completely by a person that you love. My wife left me sixteen years ago and of late I had resigned myself to a single life for the rest of my life as I don’t think Jesus taught on re- marriage being acceptable while your first spouse lives.

Notwithstanding in the past three weeks I have met a lady that is eight years my senior that is so spiritually in tune and so close to Jesus that she is the only person in the world that has been able to give me insight in the last book of prophecy in the Bible called Revelation.

She like me has met Jesus in many occasions in visions and as well acquainted with what He thinks of the modern church and the USA and George W Bush. She has read over thirty of my articles and is the only lady out of about four who have contacted me that have not tried to win my heart as a future partner.

Of course this is due to her being married, but after three weeks I have found out her husband causes her much pain and she is terribly unhappy in marriage, and yet all her conversation with me has been pure and full of love and devotion without once overstepping the mark.

She has to be the finest individual I have ever known and her heart glows with the love of God, her depth of understanding in the things of God is most surprising and my loneliness for mature women of faith in my life has disappeared.

I am love with this lady. Head over heals in love with a married women, yet at the same time not aroused sexually for her in lustful thoughts and only pray to God that if she is to marry me in the future that her husband may get ill and die.

It is possible to find love after divorce? I know that sixteen years is a long time to wait and you might not want to wait that long, but I assure you that if you are true to yourself and true to your faith, that love will find you.

So many people rush into relationships and accept less then ideal and we see not just one marriage but two and three failed marriages. My first wife is still a bright light in my heart and yet she went off and married another man. I pray that one day she will see me on television and see that I love her in the way I speak of her, but on the day she does she will see a gifted singer and preacher with me who seems to have the love and affection of her former husband.

It’s a strange feeling to be in love and yet feel no need to possess the person you love. It’s and exquisite form of love. For this new lady to come to my country and serve preaching and singing with me but be chaste and not fall into sin with me will be great. Mary Magdalene had that sort of love for Jesus Christ. They had such a close love and such a close bond and if Jesus was allowed to marry on earth, Mary would have been his wife.

Some authors have made millions by saying my friend Mary married Jesus and they may spend a long time in hell regretting those books they have written. But you can take it from me, a person that has met Mary four times on earth, Mary is a lady devoted to Jesus and a lady whose eyes have no lust in them and they have nothing but pure love for Jesus.

Yes you can find love again. But it is even possible to be in love and not to ever kiss the person you love save for a kiss on the cheek. It is possible for a man to love married women and respect her husband no matter how bad he is and not touch her. It is possible to have a Mary and Jesus relationship.

Jesus and Mary are married in heaven just as are all the people in heaven the bride of Jesus. There exist higher forms of love then marriage.

One form of love higher then marriage is the type of love for God that a priest has. One that says he has devoted his life to God and Jesus his Son and so will not be married. The life of a nun who married Jesus and wears a ring is an exquisite form of love. The love the people who serve God without a partner far exceeds that of people that marry.

You might consider being single for a few years and getting a love affair for God. Then like me a person may come along that makes you fall in love again. I might be like Mary in love for a person like Jesus and never marry. Or my friend may lose her husband in a pandemic flue virus due to hit the world and I might be able to marry her.

I guess I will leave that up to God.

May this little recent love story of mine give you hope.

Matthew shares his heart in these articles and can be found at http://www.online-prayer.net You can read more of his articles at his link below.

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